i need to start over. start fresh. i hate feeling of food in my stomach. feeling hungry, on the edge of starving yes it dose hurt i’m not going to lie, but i feel good about myself when i haven’t barely eaten anything for the day. i feel like if I just put my mind to eat i can no  eat for a couple of days. 

not like today. I hate when i eat food “here and there” like bites of that left over cake or handfuls of frosted flakes or even almonds. i don’t know how many calories i’m consuming. that is why it is important to think before eat  the first of the day. if i eat something bread or a danish that sets my whole day bad. I know it shouldn’t but that’s what i think. so the rest of the day i will be eating like shit because instead of drinking green juice or an apple and eggs for breakfast, i had a danish and i feel all that fat and calories no matter how delish it was sitting in my stomach.  unclean. 

I feel so fat today.
"I live alone, and that’s fine. You just have to make plans, that’s the key. Especially if you don’t have a normal job, because if you live alone, and you don’t make plans, here is what happens: you wake up, and it just gets darker."

— Simon Amstell, Numb  (via tiit)

new books just came.
"Control your breathing, don’t let your breathing control you."

another runner chick i follow on twitter (via distancequeen)

what when did this get notes

(via distancequeen)

"Stop acting
so fucking wounded.
The only person
that can pick you up,
push back your shoulders,
wipe the tears,
mend the broken bones
and get you out of your slump
is you.
Now go and live,
there is so much to be
happy about."

— "Things I tell myself when I feel as though the world is too big for me"  (via atmosthetic)

earlier todae b4 class